I hate that I am biologically a man. I hate being transgender. I hate having to deal with any of this, to feel this way, to feel so wrong. I put a tremendous amount of energy into hiding what I am, who I am. And I don’t like doing it at all. I hate that what I am is so repugnant, so unacceptable, that I have to hide almost everything about me. To hide it from people I care about for fear that they won’t accept me as I am. Imagine that you had to not only play the part of something you aren’t, but your body was a costume you can’t ever take off.
I just want to not be this anymore. I didn’t choose this, I hate it.